Some time ago, I put in a prayer request via your website for healing from severe anxiety disorder and dissociation. At that point, I felt like I was on the verge of insanity.
I was saved as a young child, but because of sins—committed by me and to me—I never felt worthy. Anxiety attacks, migraines, and other physical symptoms continued to plague me for years, becoming worse over time. I recently hit rock bottom because of the lies of the accuser. I went from being afraid every time I left my house to having full-blown anxiety attacks even in my own home. I would awake from sleep having these attacks.
I knew something needed to change, but didn’t know where to start.
I fought against taking medication that the doctor prescribed. I would pray and had my mother pray, but something was missing. I was determined to get well. I bought self-help books and a “Christian” book, thinking that God was willing to heal me and that Jesus died for my healing, but that I had to “do my part” if my healing was going to manifest. Boy, was I wrong! I read the “Christian” book to be set free, to get spiritual, mental, and physical healing, but it only caused me to relive and recount my entire past.
The accuser began to attack me even more. I felt worse than ever as he tormented me with things that happened 20 years ago and beyond. I actually thought that I had a taste of what hell might be like, being tormented day and night. I even thought that this was what I had to go through to get my healing. By my own failing efforts, I worked hard for redemption, trying to be good and do right for the last several years. But my efforts only worked for small periods of time and the anxiety and fear would return with a vengeance.
But, praise God, I have a praying mother and I got hold of your books and teachings, and received the revelation of grace and of the gift of righteousness. The earlier resources required my self-efforts that only made things worse, but thankfully, they brought me to the end of myself.
Through the truth of your teachings, books on grace, and the person of Jesus, I am whole. I have stopped looking to myself and started looking to Him.
Each day, I draw from the living waters of Jesus. Day by day, I become more like Him because “as He is, so am I in this world.”
I thank God for the revelations that I have had and continue to receive through your ministry. For the first time, I realize what it really means to be the righteousness of God through Christ Jesus, and understand the real, true power of the blood of Jesus and His finished work on the cross.
I’m excited about having a real relationship with my heavenly Daddy. I look forward to living the rest of my life enjoying the blessings of God through His unearned, unmerited favor. I asked for healing, but He has given me much more.
Mona Malone | Texas, United States